As Yul Brinner would say in the movie The Ten Commandments: “So it shall be written, so it shall be done!”
I did it! I resigned my position at the university exactly like I wrote I would. First, I told my boss, and then at 9am I told all eight directors. Immediately following our director’s meeting, I got my assistant directors together and let them know then I got all 20 enrollment counselors and announced my departure to them. I then contacted faculty and staff members throughout the university.
I woke up this morning feeling a sense of peace and liberation. My friends in spirit were with me all night. I did not mind. They arrived to support my life changing move. As I drank my morning latte freshly prepared by yours truly, I thought about this 49 day journey. I thought about the first day when I sat down to create the blog site in less than 5 minutes. The name “The Superman Effect” had already been conceived and not much else. I had no idea what I would write about but sat and started typing. I wrote about wanting to reveal my true nature through the telling of my true story. Of a dream that was branded in my heart and of a treasure that I had found on May 17, 2009. Most importantly, I wrote about being more than what I had become and my quest for the moment when everything would change.
I did not know then what I know now: My quest would take me to the heart of all my fears and insecurities revealing perceptions that needed to be discarded if I was to truly see the real me. My quest would also take me to the recognition that there is no such thing as an ordinary life. There is no life purpose to discover outside of the inherent richness of our every day existence. I do not have to write a book or travel all over the world to impact people’s lives. I do not have to do anything other than what I am doing at this moment.
I did not plan what I would say to my co-workers. I figured shooting from the hip has worked well with this blog, I might as well give it a try today. Every reaction I witnessed today from my co-workers was absolutely beautiful and perfect. I saw confusion, tears, smiles, disappointment, love, cheers, curiosity, fear and hope. The hardest thing I did today was telling my enrollment counselors. I have so much respect and admiration for what they go through and I relate more to them as individuals then I do the management team. I started as and will always be one of them. I will miss them more than they will ever know and thank them for teaching me so much. They are the true light of the university.
Before I close my last blog entry, I want to tell you what I want:
I want to see fear eradicated from this planet.
From today:
“You know D, I have always looked up to you. I have always felt drawn to your spirit of hope and willingness to be vulnerable. Your understanding of my insecurities and fears always made me feel like you knew exactly how I felt.
Words can’t express how much I value you. You changed my life by simply waiting for me to fly home. I never, ever, believed I was smart enough to go to grad school and fulfill my lifelong dream. Not only am I smart enough, I’m actually good at it. Thank you. You will have a part in every [counseling]client I help.
I already feel a void in my heart knowing you won’t be here. I feel as if a part of me is leaving too. You infused more into this department than numbers and spreadsheets. Far more than enrollments and goals. Your spirit was here. Your unconditional acceptance and family values will be sorely missed. You are the light of the department.
My sadness is selfish. I am truly and profoundly happy for you. I am in awe of your bravery and will be honored to read your many books. You know Wayne is my boyfriend so please get his autograph for me. Please stay in my life.
“Dennis,
wow! wOW! WOW! Do you feel like you’re flying?
"A real decision is measured by the fact that you've taken a new action. If there's no action, you haven't truly decided."- Tony Robbins
Action you have taken!
"Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls."
Joseph Campbell
Your Berlin Wall is down, now you can soar on to your bliss!
Congratulations! “
“Dennis,
Just heard the news! I’m so happy for you and very sad for us. I knew we couldn’t keep you forever. Just want to wish you all the luck in the world, I know you’ll do a outstanding job just like you did for us. I feel so fortunate to have been able to work with you. Wishing you and your family a Very Merry Christmas!”
Reality and Illusion- Poem from the The Nag Hammadi Scriptures
What am I telling you?
All at once the living die.
How do they live in illusion?
The rich become poor,
Kings are overthrown,
Everything changes.
The world is illusion.
Let me not speak so negatively.
The resurrection is different.
It is real,
It stands firm.
It is revelation of what is,
A transformation of things,
A transition into newness.
Incorruptibility flows over corruption,
Light flows over darkness, swallowing it,
Fullness fills what it lacks.
These are symbols and images of resurrection.
This brings goodness.
Coming January 11, 2010!
The Superman Effect- Part II
Link to "30 Days To A New Life"
First Entry: http://supermaneffect2.blogspot.com/2010/01/30-days-to-new-life-monday.html
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