If I am going to reveal all of me, then I have to write about my spirit communication. I have been resistant to write about what I will call ghosts for fear that my readers will be turned off, some might question my sanity or worse, become afraid themselves. First let me just say that I have never had a scary experience with any spirit beings. Partly because of what happens to me physiologically when I encounter them.
I should first warn you: I personally do not find any of these stories scary, but if you have a tendency to be frightened by ghost stories, you may want to either skip this blog entry or wait till it is daytime to read this. My only intention is to present a full canvas of my experiences as I formulate my new life.
I did not start my communication by actually seeing ghosts. About nine years ago when we moved to our first home, I would notice the presence of multiple beings in my bedroom. It was happening on a nightly basis and usually came between the awake and dream state. I would go to sleep and wake up in the middle of the night with a clear sense that there were others besides my wife and I in our room. I would be cognizant of where the ghosts were but would not receive information from them. Information came much later. At times I would wake up and the feeling of others was so strong that I would jump into a state of alert. My alertness would dissolve any perception of ghosts. I would later learn that my brain frequency had much to do with my extrasensory perception. The longer I remained in alpha brain frequency through a state of relaxation, the longer the perception would last. If I jumped back to beta, then the portal was closed.
In 2006, I had my first experience of seeing a ghost. My friend reminded me recently that I claimed to have seen my dead grandmother when I was 19, but I don’t remember that. I do remember 2006. My wife was pregnant with our second daughter and was experiencing a spiritual challenge of her own. One night, I was praying the rosary in bed while she struggled with lack of sleep and worries about her dying mother. Soon after falling asleep, I came back up to this realm and saw a girl who I immediately recognized as being 12 years old. She had beautiful red hair which reminded me of my three year old daughter at the time. In fact, I saw the ghost as a 12 year old version of my daughter. She was standing right next to me and looking straight ahead towards the wall behind me. She then proceeded to go right through the wall and I proceeded to go back to sleep. I maintained a trance–like state during the whole apparition.
When we moved to our new house in 2008, the visions became much more frequent. One night, I was awakened by my older daughter with a tug on my blanket. When I turned around to look at her, I saw a heavy set woman in a bun standing right next to her looking straight at me. I looked at her, looked at my daughter and then back to the woman who was then gone. A week later, I woke up to another woman standing about three feet above my bed. She had long black hair and was looking peacefully at me. The room was too dark to notice the color of her clothing but I knew she was wearing a long dress and she was floating over my bed. Again, no fear just an observation. A startling moment did occur in 2008, when I woke up to a man dressed in a brown flannel suit, sporting a goatee and wearing a 1920’s hat (similar to the one young Vito Corleane wore in Godfather II before he kills the Black Hand) also hovering over my bed. The man had a frantic look on his face and began to run straight towards me. I jumped out of bed and to the room behind me which happened to be the bathroom only to find my oldest daughter washing her hands. While my youngest daughter was still in her crib, I saw a toddler running across our bedroom. Was this an older version of my second daughter?
I have had one instance where I saw a ghost outside my home. It was during a business trip to Chicago. Up to this point, I had not tried to make verbal contact with a ghost and had decided that the next time I saw one, I would do so. I had just finished praying and went to sleep. When I awoke in the middle of the night, I saw a young man standing by my bed in the hotel room. He was a Caucasian man around 20 years of age and wore a blue baseball cap. I asked him, “What is your name?” He then smiled but did not tell me his name. Believe it or not, I went back to sleep. You are probably wondering how I could I possibly go back to sleep after seeing a ghost alone in a hotel room? For some reason I feel sedated throughout each experience. In this calm state, I have no problem drifting back into a dream.
After getting back from Chicago and for all of 2009, there has been a shift in the type of experiences I have had. I have not seen a ghost all year but I have increased communication with the spirit world. I noticed for a while that my children were not sleeping well and that whenever I would go into their room, the energy would feel quite different. I knew that there were spirits present and that I needed to help send them towards the light. I am still surprised by my level of courage during these encounters. I feel like the spiritual protector of the family. One night, we were having a sleep-over with the children of our close friends. The boy was having his first sleep-over and was a bit scared. My wife and I kept hearing noises coming from their room and my oldest daughter was breathing very heavily. I went into their room and found everyone fast asleep but the air extremely thick. I sat down next to the little boy who was sleeping by then and started speaking internally. “It is time to leave now. These children have to get some sleep and you are keeping them from doing so.” Immediately I felt the air get lighter and my daughter’s breathing turn normal. I went back to bed and told my wife of my experience. I then was hit like a bolt of lightning with information. Every piece of communication was punctuated with the flow of energy that I have written about in earlier entries. I started speaking about what was coming through to my wife. “The boy’s grandfather is here. He came to protect his grandson. He did not know me and was suspicious so he made his presence felt. When I sat down by the boy, the grandfather realized I was trustworthy and left me alone. There are two. The boy’s great grandfather is here also. They are so peaceful and calm. They are worried about the boy’s father. He needs to listen to his feelings and his wife can help him do so. They are pulling their energy back and thanking me.”
This type of communication has been frequent but I think this is enough for now. Perhaps it will be my sixth or seventh book. I think that there has been a progression and a convergence. I may not see ghosts anymore but I do get information that helps to, in the words of the little boy’s dad “heal souls.” Convergence comes from my communication with the higher self of those still in the physical plane.
None of these stories mean anything if they do not point to healing and evolution. It is clear that spirits have wanted to communicate with me and that I do not let fear get in the way. If we allow ourselves to be guided by our higher intuition and stay open to communication on all levels, we can all become a channel for the healing of souls. I don’t know how large of a role these experiences will play in my new life. I’m trusting it will all become clearer in the next 37 days. We’ll see.
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